2010/08/22 Sun sunny, outdoor 34-29°C The Wheel of Time:Journey to Ixtlan (4)
開始關於《巫士唐望的世界》的評論(Commentary on Journey to Ixtlan),當然首先要講「日常生活的修行」。
Don Juan Matus was applying some extremely pragmatic measures to my daily conduct. He had outlined some steps of action that he wanted me to follow rigorously. He had given me three tasks which had only the vaguest references to my world of everyday life, or to any other world. He wanted me to endeavor in my daily world to erase my personal history by any means conceivable. Then, he wanted me to stop my routines, and finally, he wanted me to dethrone my sense of self-importance. (p. 105)
「唐望為我的日常生活運用了一些非常務實的措施,他曾概述了一些行動的步驟,要我確實執行。」嗯 Google 翻譯得很棒,「他給了我三個任務,只最含混地關連到我的日常生活世界,或任何其他世界。他要我努力在我的日常世界中,以任何想得到的方法抹去我的個人歷史,然後他要我停止例行慣性,且最後他要我消除我的自我重要感。」塞,卡氏的前行還真是困難啊,不只是皈依發心純喊喊而已,馬上就要廢了我執了喔。
"How am I going to accomplish all this, don Juan?" I asked him.
"I have no idea," he responded. "None of us has any idea of how to do that pragmatically and effectively. Yet, if we start the work, we will accomplish it without ever knowing what came to aid us.
The difficulty that you encounter is the same difficulty that I encountered myself," he went on. "I assure you that our difficulty is born out of the total absence in our lives of the idea that would spur us to change. At the time that my teacher gave me this task, all I needed in order to make it work was the idea that it could be done. Once I had the idea, I accomplished it, without knowing how. I recommend that you do the same." (pp. 105-106)
「我怎麼能夠去完成所有這些啊,唐望?」我問他。「我不知道,」他回答:「我們沒有一個人知道如何務實有效地去做,然而,如果我們開始這項工作,我們就會完成它,甚至不知道什麼會來幫助我們。你所遇到的困難就跟我自己遇到的困難一樣,」他繼續說:「我向你保證,我們的困難總是在於我們生活中完全沒有激發我們改變的想法。當時我的老師給我這個任務,為了讓這件事行得通,所有我所需要的就是它會完成的想法。一旦我有這個想法,我後來完成了,也不知道是如何完成的。我建議你也一樣這樣做。」
這真的也是一種方法,以前我都是這樣辦到的,不管是製作申請學校用的作品集、申請學校,直到唸完碩士回來,我都不知道我是怎麼辦到的。作品集的排版印刷我完全不懂;康乃爾是我的留學代辦中心拒絕幫我處理,我自己申請到的。我想任何沒有頭緒的事情也可以比照辦理。
Don Juan was right. All that I needed, or rather, all that a mysterious part of me which was not overt needed, was the idea. The 'me' that I had known through all my life needed infinitely more than the idea. It needed coaching, spurring, direction. I became so intrigued by my success that the tasks of erasing my routines, losing my self-importance and dropping my personal history became a sheer delight. (p. 106)
「唐望是對的。」卡斯塔尼達這句話講很多遍了,人家是智者啊!「所有我所需要的——或更確切地說:所有我神秘的部分,它一直不被明顯需要的,只是一個想法。這個我終其一生所知道的「我」,需要的比想法還無限多。而它需要教導、激發和方向。我對我的成功是如此著迷,這些任務——消除我的慣性、失去我的自我重要感以及拋棄我的個人歷史——變成了純粹的喜悅。」